I realize am capable of this feeling. Too timid to admit missing my wife.

           This surely is a monkey mind squandering for peace engulfed in constant consumption of twitter feed. Hate that it can't stop. 

    Please life, get my mind to back where it was best - Thriving and excelling than gasp on somebodys win. 

       Kids are dogs showering their absolute love and a longing for our attention 

        

   

Constantly being picked and de moraled for being a lazy bum. Father just being a father correcting me, but the egoist me cant take it. I tend to pick the factual incorrections in argument more seriously and can't really help it.

      Yes sad for being disrespectful. But to be fair, in all honesty, am thinking but not moving. Thoughts are fuzzy with no actual initiation. Time to unmess, enjoy and focus.

     Not that I care for how am perceived, but hey at least i myself should self love and like how am going about daily shit.

HYPER MOBILITY AND PRO SOCIAL BEHAVIOR

Trying to be clingy and get over attached with the one. what the fuck is happening ? Even a Pms bitch handles her shit better than me (not sorry)

      You do what you love to do and now when i reflect, trips are hard. There is this meeting of new people and locales but for the first time i could not help fighting the urge to isolate from everything and everyone. The necessity to put your chin up and organize the day ahead is a new learning. 

         Even this very write up and thoughts are just a cunning way to escape from reality.

But hey, onto the next one now. 

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Biryani with local rice.

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 From Coimbatore to Madurai

The old bugger wont allow to drive. A pledge to retire myself to farm at that age

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Infectious smiles, Invaluable lessons.

      

      

Last day of 20's. 

Lemon Tree Hotel, Pune : 

Months of anxiety and anticipation only to be swept off by 2 minutes of careless skim and scan. What is the point of a dissertation when you are ready to bootlick for a bounty ? Pune central building is your classic government office with clerical superiority rooted.

        Nothing kindles the inner joy like a glass facade and giant buildings as an overlook. Such a chic hotel. Only if the rates were modest though

        Flying during Corona with protective gear and Rajkumar, a genius breeder who certainly instilled a spirit of R&D will stay

It marks exactly an year this week that I moved to India. One year, infinite learnings and unlearnings. 

     No duties of a school to go or job to do, clearly an year where I retired from  routine, only to pit myself into an unknown yet ambitious territory.

    There have been one to many occasions itching me to take a pause and reflect here, but finally now. 

   

    

Every aspect of the day was a different experience. The then introvert getting validated before people , who had  nothing to do but people watching, while I was carrying a lota to defecate into the woods.

      All those flowers intricately embellished. The higher the bathukamma, the bigger was the family in status. And everybody seemed to happily accept the fact. 

     My favorite part was though to get draped in new clothes , get a dummy gun and get lost in the nature and noise.

   బెబ్బరు ముద్దా :(, how hardly am I longing for you. Should get to making it.

       

       so whats your technology ?

       Me: Am a pro Googler.

Tripped. All the idiosyncrasies of  my thought busted, I land in the same pit I constantly blabber about. Its just that I like it now ? My previous stance now seems rather farcical. It at least feels lot less far fetched of an expectation to discover the one.